Tuesday, July 28, 2009
My grandmother's condition has worsened. I still can't find my diamond (I'm going to have to go fill a claim later today or tomorrow). It's pouring so hard that I'm worried that my house might flood (it almost flooded last year, we do have flood insurance). The grandfather of kids that I nanny for is having a major surgery, which I believe is related to his prostate cancer. I'm so upset right now, and I'm not sure if I can handle anything else. I need some prayers.
Monday, July 27, 2009
My grandmother went into the hospital on Saturday due to heart problems. Her heart was beating a little too fast and then it would stop for 3-6 seconds, which would make her black out, and then it would restart. She's in the ICU, but she seems to be doing ok today and may be released tomorrow or the day after. Please pray that she will continue to do well. D and I were in town and were able to visit her along with a few of my other relatives. We got in late and I'm very tired.
This morning after putting my ring back on from washing my hands, I realized that my diamond had fallen out of my ring and I haven't yet been able to find it. I have it insured but I just want to find my diamond. I'm probably going to have to get the setting completely redone since I have it less than 3 years and it's been loose before.
Yesterday was also CD 1, so I'm handling the stress even worse than usual. It's starting to bug me when I hear about people who have spotting and end up being pregnant because I start thinking that it's a possibility, but it's never true for me.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
I got to P+7 , but I started spotting/bleeding today. I hate have to deal with it over and over again for 2 or more weeks straight. I'm so glad that I'll be calling in 2 weeks to schedule my surgery. I really want to know what's causing my crazy bleeding since low progesterone seems to have been ruled out.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
When I take the kids that I nanny for (boy almost 2 and girl almost 4) places, people assume that they are my children unless I tell them otherwise. It often not worth mentioning unless it's people we or I see regularly. Those times when it's not worth mention, I feel like I'm lying to people when they ask questions about the kids, like how old they are, and assume I'm their mom. After the tire incident Saturday, I had to take the little boy with me to buy a new tire while the girl was at VBS. The tire guy asked how old he was and told me about his 2-year-old. When I was picking the little girl up from VBS, I was think about how I'm the hidden infertile, who everyone would assume was a mom and how everyone else there (even the grandparents) had had children (or at least adopted). It's weird being an infertile who takes care of children all day.
Congratulations to Sew, who if you don't know, recently found out that she's finally pregnant!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I just remember that I didn't tell you about last Saturday night while we were out with friends to see a comic. D and a friend went out after D got off work Saturday, and then they picked me up to go to dinner. At dinner, I caused serious injury to my toenail by hitting it with the bathroom door. After I got back to the table, D manage to step on it.
We then got in my car (D drove) to head over to see the comic. There was a stopped train that caused us to detour, and as D was going back out to the street we need to be on, he hit a curb and popped my front driver's side tire. We pulled over and they put on the spare; however, the spare was flat. I had to drive superslow the mile to get to where we were going. Obviously, at this point, I'm not in a good mood. We sit down with our friends and some of their friends to wait until it was time for the show, and one of the women we were with was pregnant (visibly so she was probably about 6 months along). It was just one of those things that I didn't really want to have to deal with during an already crappy evening.
Yesterday, however, was a good day for the most part, except for me stressing myself out about stuff to get done.
Monday, July 13, 2009
I'm on CD 15, and I had a couple days of 10C/KL or 10KL (earlier than ever), but now I'm having just 8C. My temp is relatively low so I don't think that I actually ovulated. If I did ovulate, I ovulated on CD 13, the earliest since I started charting in June 2007. I don't know if I'm going to have a split or double peak. I've had either a split or double peak for the last few cycles, which is getting really annoying. I just want my body to work correctly. I'm ready to have my surgery to see if my cycles normalize then.
D and my anniversary is tomorrow.
Monday, July 6, 2009
I'm on day 8, and I (as of know) seem to have finished spotting yesterday. That's definitely an improvement for me. It would be nice if this coming weekend (or by our anniversary next Tuesday), I had fertile CM but I'm not going to hold my breath since my body likes to throw curveballs. I'm finally at my maintance dose for T3 and only have to do temps and pulses once a week instead of every day.
I hope everyone had a great July 4. We had a very low key day and just hung out at home.
D's best friend's wedding was a lot of fun, but there was a lot of baby/pregnancy talk. They are some of the later people to get married and they went to a strong Catholic college so most married people had one or more kids. One of the bridesmaids was about 8 months pregnant. I did get to see my IRL IF friend who is starting to look into adoption for her second child (tried 4 years for first and have been trying 4 years for second). I also got to see my brother who's a religious, and he and some friends prayed with me about IF.