CD 1...Cycle 11

Quicky post: Cycle #11 seems to have started today. Next Wednesday (July 23) will be a year since Cycle #1 of officially TTC (I o'd right before the wedding so we didn't have a chance that cycle). I took my first Provera pill today. There's no way I'm pregnant, and I want to get done with the bleeding.

Provera

The reason that my dr. prescribed provera is that is it is supposed stop irregular bleeding. However, it is contraindicated for pregnancy, so I want to make sure there's no miracle pregnancy first.

Sad

I just can't get out of the sadness. Ever since I started bleeding the day I o'd, I've felt sad and a little scared. It really bothers me and makes me a little depressed that there are no answers as to why I'm bleeding. I'm supposed to start Provera, but I'm really paranoid that somehow the beta was too early and that if I end up taking it, I'll find out I'm actually pregnant. To avoid that possibility, I'm going to wait until Saturday and test then. If it's negative then, I'll start the Provera. I really hope that next cycle doesn't involve crazy bleeding; I can't handle it happening again. I need there to be a chance that this could work sometime soon. I really want a baby before my 29th birthday in October next year, so we have about 6 more months for that to happen.