Good things

Yesterday I went to a presentation hosted by the local Cathedral's pro-life group about Creighton and NaPro.  I already knew the information, but I was able to meet some local people who have dealt with or are dealing with infertility.  Since it's so hard to meet other people IRL who are dealing with infertility, and especially who've gone through the morally licit treatments like NaPro, I wanted to put myself out there are a resource and a connection into the blog world for others who are here locally.

I'm starting work on Monday and I got to meet the little boy (really little, less than 2 weeks old) I'll be nannying for.  This week I'll be just helping out the mom, whose still on leave for a little while long, since the dad will be out of town.

D and I did end up using Friday night, and it was a much happier experience than Thursday night was.  It's looking like yesterday (CD 16, pretty good for me) was Peak day so Friday would have been P-1.  It would be nice to use today, but I'm glad to have decent timing at all after Thursday night's debacle.  The annoying thing is that I'll have to get my P+7 done next Saturday, and we'll have friends in town plus D's working 7-5, so it'll take some effort to get the bloodwork done.

 I really hope that the bleeding will continue to stay away this cycle.  As disappointing as it would be to have hope that I was pregnant and not be, it's even more disappointing to not even get to have any hope.

Weird dreams, etc.

Last night I had a weird dream.  I wasn't pregnant, but for some reason people who I wasn't going to see for a while were giving me presents of maternity clothes and baby clothes.  It was very odd and I felt a bit embarrassed.  About a week or so ago, I had a dream that was clearly based on AYWH adopting Clara.  In this dream, somehow we had been offered a preemie to adopt even though we weren't actually actively pursuing adoption.  I'm pretty sure that K and R were with us in the dream.

I'm think I might have ovulated about 2-3 days ago (Monday or Tuesday), but yesterday was peak day based on my current instructions.  My ovary pain ended after Monday.  We only used Saturday morning.  I'm getting close to the halfway point between surgeries.  I have about 6 weeks left.

I'm going to post a picture of my pill boxes (I have three for my meds and vitamins).  My vitamins are in one, my nighttime Hydrocort and antacid in another, and other Hydrocort doses and T3, plus the antibiotics in the third).  I got one of the 4 a day pill things where you can pop out the day's worth of pills separately.  Here's what I'm taking:
Hydrocort (5 mg 4x daily, breakfast, lunch, dinner and bedtime)
T3 (22.5 mg 2x daily, 9am & 9 pm)

Rainbow Light Complete Prenatal (6 daily)

Vitamin B-complex (50 mg, 1 daily)

Vitamin C with rosehips (250 mg, 3 daily)

Vitamin E (200 mg, 1 daily)

Flax Oil (1 tbsp daily in breakfast smoothie)

Fish Oil (1 daily)

These both D and I are taking:

Clarithromycin antibiotic (500 mg 2x daily, for 21 days...we've got about a week left)

Fluconazole (150 mg 1x daily, yesterday, today, and tomorrow...they found even more yeast in the cultures)

August 3

August 3 is when I'm supposed to call to get my surgery scheduled for one of the first 3 weeks in December. I'm probably not going to be able to get the u/s series done then because of the amount of time I'd need to take off.

Although the ticker says 7DPO (which means our timing wasn't quite as bad as I thought since we used O-2), my waking temps are in the low 97 the past couple days and I don't know that I've actually ovulated. In addition to the low temps, I seem to be going back to more fertile CM and I'm on CD 31 (lovely).

P+1?

I'm pretty sure today is O+1/P+1 (CD 18 is not too bad for me).  Yesterday I had a temp dip and 10KL (I didn't have as much CM as usual though), and today was a higher temp and 8C.  We used Monday, but yesterday D was frustrated and tired of sex on a schedule.  I completely understand the sentiment; we are "forcing" ourselves during fertile times and doing that for two years has gotten old.  I'm going to work on surrending it since I have a habit of being the pursuer instead of letting D pursue.  

Once I've confirmed my peak day, I'm planning to call to try to get my surgery scheduled (still planning on Dec.).  I'm hoping that I'll have another month without the crazy spotting; that would be such an improvement.

Waiting for Monday

I should have confirmation if I ovulated on Monday, since my period should arrive on Sunday or Monday if I ovulated when I think I did.  If my period doesn't come, it could be late ovulation, an annovulatory cycle or I could be pregnant.  I'm not testing until at least Tuesday or Wednesday if my period hasn't shown up.  If it's late ovulation, I better ovulate some time soon since I'm already on CD 29 (haha...we know our body will do what we want, right?).   I also have to wait until Monday to get my records from my dr, since she won't be in the office to sign off on the release before then.  If I can get the records and my period has come by then, I should be sending my letter to Dr. Hilgers on Monday.

It's been a long week, since I've had to wake up at 5:15 or 5:30 every day so far instead of my usual 6:00.  I also have shoulder and lower back pain right now.

I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving.  We are going to be going home and spending it with both sets of parents.  Since they only live a couple miles apart, we can do early dinner with my parents and late with D's parents.  D will be on a business trip from Sunday to Wednesday, but he'll be meeting me in Houston on Wednesday night.

More craziness from my body

I had some even more peak-like mucus (10 C/K) yesterday, and my temp this morning was 97.6.  I have no idea if I o'd yet and I'm trying to keep our bases covered.  Luckily, D was in the mood to make sure our timing would be ok.  I have my annual at my ob/gyn later this morning.

It's almost my birthday

My 28th birthday is tomorrow and so is my 10 year high school reunion.  There's not really anyone from high school (from my year at least) that I'm still friends with, but I'm curious to see everyone.  We are going to a football game tonight (as part of the reunion) where the high school that I went to is playing the high school that my youngest brother just graduated from in June.  My parents are going to the game although they'll be on the side of my brother's high school since he was a varsity starter for 2 years.

This week has been long and tiring.  I went on Mondayto get my license finally changed to Louisiana (after living here over two years), since my Texas one was about to expire.  I didn't have all the documentation that I needed (since the website is not very clear), so I had to go home and then come back.  I had a dentist appt on Wednesday and I got my car "inspection" (they don't really inspect much that I can tell) and I had to take the lady I work for her cell phone.

I think I oed yesterday since my temp went up and I went to less fertile mucus (from 10KL to 8CL).  I hope I did, so that this no sex cycle will over with soon.  I'm ready to get back to trying and it would also be nice if I could be oing around CD 17 or 18, instead of CD 21, even without the CD 21.  I was worried (and still am slightly worried) that I'll go back to my regular CD 21 o with some cycles going closer to CD 28 to 30-something.  

I think that for next cycle I need to figure out some way to let D know that it's fertile time without telling him so that he can be the initiator.  He's been more interested in sex ever since we have been on the break, so I'd like to have some ideas on keeping him interested so that we'll have decent timing in the future.

When did I o?

That's still the big question. After this morning's temperature, now advanced (FF detector) is giving me dotted crosshairs for CD 28 (Tuesday). I seduced D just in case. I don't know if I o-d Tuesday, Thursday, yesterday or not yet. Our timing should be ok for any of the possible o dates. I guess I'll find out soon. I don't know if I should be starting the progesterone tonight or waiting.

Maybe I ovulated???

I might have o-d on CD 28 (Tuesday), but my temp has not gone up very much and it's only dotted crosshairs (Fertility Friend is unsure). Plus, if I change the detector from FAM, then no o is detected. This happened last month too. Of course, D was tired and not in the mood last night so no just in case. I'll try again tonight, but I'm not too hopeful. I need my temp to go up to at least the high 97s so I'll know I o'd and can start on my progesterone. I hate that my body must continually screw with me. I don't feel like I'm ever going to get pregnant. I have very little hope lately.