Spotting

I detest spotting, especially since I've dealt with it for alot of the past year. I'm currently still just lightly spotting and weirdly enough my temp is going up. I just want my body to decide if it's started a new cycle or not and get to my real period. I put in a new cycle on FF, but I'm not sure if it's true

Second FP?

I think that Provera may have caused a second FP starting yesterday. How exciting. Now I probably have to wait 3 more weeks to o. My body is really driving me crazy, and I don't know how much longer I can deal with my body being screwed up. I'm so frustrated and sad right now.

9 DPO...still spotting/bleeding off and on

I still have been getting bouts of red flow for a few hours, but it slows back to spotting. I have some cramps, but they are waaay less intense than usual. I guess I'm hoping that I can hold off on FP officially starting until Sunday or Monday, so that my LP could be somewhat normal. There's no way that anything good can be happening with all of this bleeding.

I'll be going out of town tomorrow to visit our parents then to Memphis for a business trip with D, since I have a week or two off since the kids I nanny went to go stay with their grandparents while their mom studies for her end of residency board test. I'm very glad that he's going out of town when I can go with him. I'll need to figure out some things to do in Memphis other than hang out at the hotel like I usually do. While we are home visiting our parents, we are going to take our dads to see Indiana Jones.

It's not quite over...yet... 8 DPO

The spotting seems to have almost stopped for the moment and my temp went back up from 97.9 to 98.4 (though yesterday was an hour early). Therefore, my body hasn't completely betrayed me yet. I still have a chance of making it to 12 DPO or 13 DPO before FP really starts (no reason to believe that it won't). Maybe my body just didn't want me to be hopeful this time around. I will not test until I'm late which is next Tuesday, June 17.

7 DPO and the likely end of cycle #9

This morning I woke up to relatively heavy full red flow at 7DPO (or 10 DPO based on OPKs). I had to get up early this morning, of course which makes it worse. 5 am is not when you want to see blood almost a week early. Either way my LP was way too short, even compared to my usual 11 day LP unmedicated. Even if the flow somehow stops (it has slowed down since the morning) and doesn’t return for a week, it’s highly unlikely that I could be pregnant.

I’m so frustrated and disappointed. We are almost at 11 months TTC. Only 2 more cycles and it will be officially infertility. I don’t know what to do since we can’t afford to move on to an RE yet. I’m just stuck here hoping against hope that my body can actually do this, which is seeming less likely every cycle. I’m really hoping that the rest of today doesn’t turn out as crappy as this morning has.

There was thunder and lightning most of last night so I didn’t sleep well. It rained earlier and now it’s just grey and overcast. I just wanted to go home and go to sleep, but I got off work too late to take a nap.

18 DPO...I think my period is finally coming

AF/FP is finally coming, I think. This is a good thing, I've been waiting to start my next cycle since BFN on Sunday at 15 DPO and my last progesterone on Saturday. Progesterone got me from a 11 day LP to a 17 day LP. My temp finally dropped today and I started spotting this morning. Cycle #7 should officially be here later today or tomorrow, hopefully. I'll be doing the same regimen as last cycle with 50 mg clomid, estrogen, and progesterone.