Saturday, September 3, 2011

Tired

I'm so tired right now.  Yesterday was extra bad on the nap front.  K took one good nap in the morning but then I had a terrible time getting her to sleep and ended up having to drive her around for 1.5 hours last night.  I was hoping to hang out with D and a couple friends but K was hysterical.  D has been working a lot (like he has had  not had a full day off since a week ago Monday) and he's working today and has to go out to mow my parents' lot on Sunday.  He does have Monday off.  Since he's working so much, he goes to hang out with his friend on Thursday and Friday evenings, which I understand, but I've pretty much been dealing with K by myself all day and I'm not really getting a break.

She's only occasionally napping longer than 30 minutes and won't go to bed until between 9:30 and 10:30 (and lately it's been 10:30).  Once she's down for the night, I still have stuff to do to get ready for the morning as well as getting a bit done for my class so I'm not in bed for another hour usually.  Then she's nursing off and on from 4 or 5 until she gets up, so I'll not sleeping great during that time.  Yesterday and today, she seems extra fussy and is even having a few spurts of hysterical crying so it's been extra rough.  She doesn't seem sick and doesn't have a fever or anything.  Being tired and frustrated is really starting to wear me down and I've had a couple crying spells myself.

I'm not getting anywhere near as much done for my class as I want to, and I need to get it done so D can not have to work quite as much.  I'm feeling resentful that I'm not getting it done and that when she freaks out when we are out, I have to leave and D can stay.  I feel lonely.  It's really frustrating because I don't know what to do.

4 comments:

  1. That sounds awful! Sounds like daddy needs to stay home for the next couple of weeks! ;)

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  2. i'm sorry, it sounds like you're going through a super busy schedule with all you have on your plate. I hope you and D can work together to find something a little more managable for both of you. and i hope she gets back to sleeping more regularly, that would probably be a good start.

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  3. I have been there. I know you don't want to be that needy wife, but sometimes especially in the beginning with a new baby it's rough and mama's need breaks or else we go crazy. Do you have a baby sling? I have a Mo.by I never use these days, I could send it to you. Then you could wear her while she sleeps and do small chores and school work.

    Once she starts sleeping through the night, it will get better.

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