I had my third blood draw today. I'm on CD 10, and I just stopped bleeding/spotting (as of now) earlier today. I guess it's good that if I'm not always going to o on CD 15, that I have what is a more common cycle for me when I have my bloodwork. It'll probably (hopefully) be a normal CD 21 o. It would really suck to go past CD 30 without oing, that would be a lot of blood draws (I'll already have 14 if I o on CD 21).

We didn't really do much for Valentine's Day. D was help a friend most of the day and then we got tickets to go to Vegas for D's birthday with the friends. Their anniversary is the same weekend as D's birthday in early April. I've never been to Vegas, but everyone else has.

I've felt a bit off emotional for the past week or so. I'm not sure why, but I'm getting extra frustrated with D and he's getting annoyed with me.

Quick update

I'm still having computer issues, so just a quick update.

There was some drama, but I was able to get my b/w started yesterday. I go again tomorrow (and Saturday I believe). Today is CD 6 and I'm down to just light/brown, which means there's a possibility that this cycle will be an early ovulation (for me, normal for most people) like last cycle.

I'll try to actually do a longer post this weekend. I also haven't been able to read blogs as often as usual so I'll be comment even less than usual until the computer situation is resolved.

Saturday was CD 1

We were out of town this weekend and my computer is on the fritz (I'm using D's computer while he's at basketball).

I'm now on CD 3 of cycle #17. I should be starting my b/w for the hormone series on Wednesday. No real news otherwise.

Plans

The tentative plan is that I'm going to try to schedule my surgery in December of this year.  That gives us time to save a bit, but still get it on this year's deductible.  I'm planning to do the hormone series this coming cycle (assumed CD1 on Saturday), and the dr that I nanny for is going to help me make sure that I can get the bloodwork drawn and sent off to PPVI.  Supposedly the hormone series will be completely covered, but we'll have to see when the bill comes.  Either way, the hormone series is a really important step in figuring out the problem.

I watched the EWTN Abudant Life episode on "Barren and Blessed" and it reminded me that D processes this stuff differently than I do.  He can't respond to things immediately, especially when money is involved.  I need to tell him information and let him process for a few days, instead of freaking out when he doesn't respond right away.

I'm 10DPO today.  I've had light spotting for the past two days, but today it's become more of a light bleed.  

Good news and bad news

I talked to the billing lady at PPVI and got the cost for the various procedures.  Dr. Hilgers and the hospital are in network, so we only have 20% to pay.  I don't know the hospital cost, but I'm guessing a minimum total cost with all procedures/labs it will be at least $17,000.  That means we have at least $4,000 to pay out of pocket.   However, I'm not sure if we are going to be able to ever afford to actually do anything, since we aren't going to go into debt again to do it.  D has basketball tonight, and of course he wouldn't give me a time frame other than 10 years (which I think is a joke...maybe).  If he wasn't joking, then we are totally screwed.  I'm actually thinking that it's going to be around fall 2011 (around my 31st birthday) based on looking at our finances.  That means that I can't replace my computer which is continuously saying that the hard drive is full is, runs pretty slowly, and the case is physically broken.  I don't know if we are ever going to be able to afford adoption either if we can't have biological children.

I am 8 DPO/Peak+7 and I've had some spotting/bleeding so there's a 99% chance that I'm already out for this cycle.  I might be able to do the hormone series, which is supposedly covered under my insurance at 100%, the next cycle or the one after but I'll believe it when I see it.  There's a good chance that I have almost 3 more years of this crap to deal with.  I think I need to get a weekend job.  The problem is finding one where I could work 8 hours on Saturday and Sunday, plus be able to go to church.  I'm really in a freak out mode right now.  I need to pray about this when I do my evening prayer tonight.

D is talking to me again since Sunday.