Friday, April 10, 2009
Good Friday, CD 1...Cycle #19
It looks like today is the start of Cycle #19 (although it's hard to know what's really CD 1 with the crazy bleeding that I have start around 3DPO/just after Peak). I'm getting frustrated again at the lack of progress we seem to be making. I'll be doing the Symptom Checklist and Temperature Assessment for the T3 study this month. Even if the T3 is an issue, I'm pretty sure that it's not what's causing my bleeding. Since nothing else seems to be hormonely wrong with me, there has to be some sort of structural problem causing it, right? My surgery won't be until December, which is still 8 months away. If there is a problem, it might not even be fixed then depending on how serious it is. I hate the fact that we are going to hit the two-year mark without know the cause of the bleeding (which has to be at least part of the the cause of the infertility).
D and I had a pretty good time in Las Vegas. It was kind of tiring though and D is not good about calling it a night around the friends we went with. I was kind of hopeful when the bleeding/spotting stopped for almost a day, but it started right back up again. D actually managed to win almost $200, so that was cool. All the food we ate was great. I think D had a good 27th birthday.
One of the hardest things to do is remember that my suffering is minor compared to Christ's and to many other people's. The other thing I have to remember is that without the suffering of Good Friday, there's no joyful resurrection on Easter Sunday. One day I will receive the joyous gift that God has prepared for me, but it may not be the gift that I hope it is.