Monday, April 13, 2009
Having problems waiting
I wish that I didn't have to wait until December for my surgery. Since the only problem that was found in my b/w was the thyroid issue, I (self-diagnosing of course) think that there's a good chance that endo is what's causing my bleeding. I don't have horrible cramps, but I do definitely have bad cramps at least one day each cycle.
I'm also feeling like I'm stuck in the intellectual side of my relationship with God. I say the Morning and Evening Prayers from the Magnificat everyday, but I have a hard time praying in my own words. My mind knows about God, but my heart is scared to let go and have faith. I'm still trying to figure out where my place is my parish is and I haven't met any church friends. That combined with IF is making me feel lost.