Good things

Yesterday I went to a presentation hosted by the local Cathedral's pro-life group about Creighton and NaPro.  I already knew the information, but I was able to meet some local people who have dealt with or are dealing with infertility.  Since it's so hard to meet other people IRL who are dealing with infertility, and especially who've gone through the morally licit treatments like NaPro, I wanted to put myself out there are a resource and a connection into the blog world for others who are here locally.

I'm starting work on Monday and I got to meet the little boy (really little, less than 2 weeks old) I'll be nannying for.  This week I'll be just helping out the mom, whose still on leave for a little while long, since the dad will be out of town.

D and I did end up using Friday night, and it was a much happier experience than Thursday night was.  It's looking like yesterday (CD 16, pretty good for me) was Peak day so Friday would have been P-1.  It would be nice to use today, but I'm glad to have decent timing at all after Thursday night's debacle.  The annoying thing is that I'll have to get my P+7 done next Saturday, and we'll have friends in town plus D's working 7-5, so it'll take some effort to get the bloodwork done.

 I really hope that the bleeding will continue to stay away this cycle.  As disappointing as it would be to have hope that I was pregnant and not be, it's even more disappointing to not even get to have any hope.

D and babies

D and I have had a couple of good talks this week about kids. I think that if in two to three years (which will be three to four years of trying), if I'm not pregnant then we'll start on the adoption process. He has said that he want to play with the kids that I nanny for. We also talked about Creighton Model and how that part of the reason that I wanted to do it is to help figure out what going wrong. We were over at a friend's house, and another friend had their one year old there. I held him for a second, and then D asked if he could hold him. D walked around with him for a while; it was very sweet. I hope and pray that one day he can walk around like that with our baby.

I'm still spotting, although it went to full on bleeding earlier this week and has lessened as of yesterday. I'm 11 DPO, so my period should be here tomorrow. Hopefully, the break/abstainance cycle will be on the shorter side, but we'll have to see. I would be so disappointed if it ended up being a o on CD 28 or later cycle.

Last night was a good night

D and I finally got our bedroom sorted out after living in this house for 2 1/2 months. I've still been in a funk, but the attention he paid to me last night has improved my mood. We were up pretty late last night, but it was definitely worth it.

I only had 5 days of FP and a day of spotting, which is actually really short for me (and makes me very happy). I've been having some vision issues, and I'm wondering if it's clomid s/e (even though my last dose was over a month ago). My temp is also kind of high for before o. I've already got watery CM and it's only CD 9. I don't usually 0 until CD 21 (which falls a week from Tuesday), and the only other time that I had fertile CM this early was last cycle when I triggered and o'd CD 17. Hopefully we can maybe get a o on Saturday/CD 18 (since D will most likely be out of town next week from Monday night until late Friday (CD 13 through 17). Even CD 19 or 20 (next Sunday or Monday) would be an improvement for me.