Thursday, July 16, 2009

Sometimes I feel like a fraud

When I take the kids that I nanny for (boy almost 2 and girl almost 4) places, people assume that they are my children unless I tell them otherwise. It often not worth mentioning unless it's people we or I see regularly. Those times when it's not worth mention, I feel like I'm lying to people when they ask questions about the kids, like how old they are, and assume I'm their mom. After the tire incident Saturday, I had to take the little boy with me to buy a new tire while the girl was at VBS. The tire guy asked how old he was and told me about his 2-year-old. When I was picking the little girl up from VBS, I was think about how I'm the hidden infertile, who everyone would assume was a mom and how everyone else there (even the grandparents) had had children (or at least adopted). It's weird being an infertile who takes care of children all day.

Congratulations to Sew, who if you don't know, recently found out that she's finally pregnant!


  1. i totally know what you mean! i had my best friend's car seat for about week in my car and i kept on thinking, "if someone were to walk by my car they would think that i was a mom too!"

    how sad.

    it'll happen for us too, we just have to be patient.

  2. I think that might give me a real identity crisis. I really admire your ability to be kind and loving to someone else's children when you really want one of your own. I'm not sure I could do it.