Monday, January 5, 2009
Desperate for answers
I'm getting to the point where it's been about 5 weeks since Dr. Hilgers received my letter, and I'm praying that the reply will come soon (the letter acknowledging my letter said about 6 weeks). I know that I'm going to be starting a new cycle soon (Fri-Sun is when I expect CD 1). I'd like to be able to get testing done this coming cycle. I feel stuck, and the bleeding doesn't help. I just need to know what's wrong with me.
I loved AYWH's post on trusting that God will answer her prayers. I need to work on doing that, too. Sometimes I'm not even confident enough in my belief to pray for children. D and I talked about what we would name our children long before we got married, so we have names. I haven't brought up much baby-related stuff recently, because I feel like I'm bringing up stuff that won't end up happening.
My goal for this year is to be more charitable (financially, with my time, and in my thoughts). I told D to budget in donation money when he worked on our budget, and I'm looking for a good volunteer opportunity.
I'm still bleeding. It's more than spotting and less than a full period flow. I'm at 7-9 DPO/Peak+7. That's it for a cycle update. I updated my crazy Creighton chart. I'm going to need more red stickers soon.