Tuesday, April 29, 2008

2/3 DPO

D got home on Friday night late but we had sex on Friday night and on Sunday morning. Based on my trigger and the fact that my temp spike happened on Sunday morning, I o-d around 2 am on Sunday. Our timing should have been pretty good and I o-d early on CD 17. My beta will be on Mother's Day and I should get the results on Monday morning. We were talking last night and we both kind of think that this is our only good chance to get pregnant, since I probably won't be taking any meds again for a while. I am planning to try Vitex next cycle since I won't be on Clomid and it might help me earlier. Tonight I'm going to start my progesterone.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Triggered this afternoon

I got my trigger done today! I'm so excited to be o-ing before CD 21 (today is CD 15). It took me an hour and a half of calling pharmacies to find one that had it in stock, but I got it for $60. I was so excited. I found out that Walgreens was probably charging me for the cost of them ordering the whole case of 10 at with the $600, even though I was only going to get/need the one injection. I actually had my employer (I'm a nanny for two drs) give me my injection (thankful the wife was the one who got home first) since DH won't be home until after midnight and my dr wanted me to trigger ASAP. My butt does still hurt from the injection 7 hours ago. I went to a "slumber party" this evening, and I'm ready for D to get home and take care of business. Sadly, the things I ordered were not in stock, so I won't get them until Wednesday.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Good follie check

I had my CD 13/14 follie check today and I had 2 follies between 20-23. I was going to trigger sometime tonight or tomorrow morning. I had to drive around to different pharmacy for an hour to find one with HCG trigger in stock. I go to pick up my prescription and was thwarted by the cost. Trigger is almost $600, and my insurance doesn't cover it or anything else infertility related. We can't afford that right now, so D said it was a no-go.
D gets back from his business trip tomorrow night, so I'm hoping that my body will cooperate and release those two nice eggs on Saturday (CD 16) or so. I plan to attempt daily TI until o, but D is unlikely to cooperate. If only I could have triggered and could guarantee my o date, I would feel so much more confident. I haven't ever o-d before CD 21, and I hope my body doesn't wait until then since my eggs will probably crap out by then.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Ultrasound rescheduled

My u/s was rescheduled because the tech was out with a sick child. The new time is tomorrow at 4 pm. Hopefully my follies will be nice and big and almost ready to pop by then (although they should wait until at least Friday if not Saturday to actually pop).

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Kind of bored

I don't like being home by myself at night. I'm getting a little lonely and bored since D's not here. I have only talked to him for maybe a total of 15 minutes since he left (he's not in a very talkative mood...not super unusual).

I have my follie check u/s tomorrow, so hopefully I will have some nice big follies almost ready to go (but not before Friday). I'm really hoping that D will get home before midnight on Friday, but it's not too likely. I'm going to do my OPKs starting Thursday (CD 14), since obviously having intercourse before Friday is not an option (we did it Sunday, but that probably won't be close enough if I manage to o tomorrow or Thursday). I'm hoping I won't o before Saturday since D will get home late and probably not be in the mood (though of course I'm still going to try to get him to do it). I'm hoping to get an OPK+ on Friday or Saturday, but it's possible that I'll have my usual late o around CD 21 (the only good thing about that would be that hopefully our timing would be decent). I don't feel like o is impending but I hope it happens this weekend.

Monday, April 21, 2008

D is out of town :(

D left yesterday for Alabama for the week for work. He'll be back Friday, so my body will hopefully wait until at least Friday before I o (CD 15- early for me, but hopefully the clomid will make it a little early). I just really don't want to waste a cycle, especially a medicated one. I would probably do one more round if I did o before D got back, since obviously there would be no chance due to the timing. I'm pretty sure that I won't o before then, since I get fertile signs generally for 5+ days before and I don't really have anything showing fertile yet. I finished the clomid on Friday, and I started my estrogen on Saturday. My follie check u/s is on Wed.

In other news, my high school reunion is on my 28th birthday. D is being weird and saying that he doesn't want to go, but hopefully it's just him not wanting to plan so far ahead.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Still spotting

I thought that I was going to be lucky and only have a 6 day FP (including spotting). I stopped spotting on Wednesday, but it started back yesterday and I'm still spotting today. I took my last clomid today and I'll be starting on my estrogen tomorrow. D is off tomorrow, but he leaves for Alabama some time on Sunday and he won't be back until Friday. I'm trying to think positive thoughts about when I'll o (like that D will be in town but it won't be as late as usual), and that our timing will be good.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Feeling bloated

I guess going up to 100 mg clomid gave me bloat. I wasn't really bloated the first two round of clomid but I was only on 50 mg. I'm hoping that this means I get a bit earlier o, but I thought that the first round of clomid too. I've got two more days of clomid, then I start my estrogen. I have my follie check u/s on Wednesday next week while D is out of town, so hopefully I won't o between CD 13 and 15. Hopefully I'll have some good size but not quite ready follies. I guess we'll find out in a week or so. I'll probably start doing OPKs after my u/s to see when I surge since my other signs don't really tell me if o is impending.

Monday, April 14, 2008

"Fun" at the dentist.

Going to the dentist was not fun. Not because I needed fillings or anything, but because I had to come back for my x-rays. I was in the 2ww when I went to the dentist, so I had let them know that there was a possibility I might be pregnant and they didn't do the x-rays then. So when I came in this time, I swear that every person I saw mentioned that I'm not pregnant (as if the cramps and the fact that I started my next round of clomid today would allow me to forget for one second).

D and I have been married and TTC for 9 months now (3/4 of a year). I thought for sure I'd be pregnant by now, not starting cycle #8. Did you notice that those numbers don't match? If I had normal, regular 28 day cycles (or even something close), I'd probably be starting cycle #10 by now. I really hope that this cycle works; it feels like our last chance. I guess if D is out of town when I o, I'll try one more medicated cycle since that probably doesn't count, right? Hopefully, I won't o until D is back in town (hoping for CD 16).

I started my clomid a little later than I intended to, since this is technically CD4 (but I didn't really start FP until late on Friday, so I should be ok, right? Well, the reason that I didn't start last night is that I was waiting for D to go to Lowe's and then we would stop and pick up my meds on the way there or back. Well, he never went. When I decided to go at 5, I got there and the pharmacy had closed at 4. I was pissed, and D just said you can get it tomorrow. Well, I knew that and got pissed at him for not understanding. Later, I explained that what I want him to say in that situation is "That sucks. I'm sorry". Hopefully, he'll remember that for next time.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Last night was not good

It should have been. We went to Tyler to see my parents and grandparents, because they came up to see my parents' land where they're going to build their house. I went to go pick up D from work, and he didn't come down until 45 minutes after I got there and called (not a good start). Then, he told me that he'll be out of town for a week from April 20-April 25. CD 14 is April 24. I haven't ever ovulated that early, but that's why I'm on 100 mg of Clomid. So the ideal date for me to ovulate would be CD 16 or 17. Hopefully my body will cooperate with my plans (unlikely though). When we got to Tyler, we missed the turn and D got angry at me that we always get lost (and he always get angry when we get lost). When I went into the hotel to meet my parents, he stayed in the car. I was upset and crying at this point, and didn't even say hi to my grandparents until grandma said something. Grandma is going to be starting to go downhill medically. Oh, did I mention that I had major cramps from FP too? We barely talked to each other until this morning, and went to bed without kissing or saying "I love you" or even "Goodnight". I guess this morning is better, so that's good. I do wish that I could have been in a better mood to see my family, but I can't change what happened.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

New cycle started yesterday!

I had my pre-clomid u/s yesterday. No cysts or anything so I'm good to start clomid. I started spotting after the u/s and by the evening, FP had started. I'll be taking 100 mg of clomid on CD 3-7 this time (the u/s tech said yesterday that 50 mg CD 3-7 didn't do much to my ovaries). This will be my third and last cycle on clomid, so hopefully I'll o sometime between CD 14-18. I'm hoping that earlier o will give me a better egg to work with, and maybe I'll get pregnant this time around.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Ugh...waiting for next cycle

I've got my pre-clomid u/s tomorrow. I'm still waiting for FP to show up; it probably won't be until Saturday. This is the suckiest part. I know I'm not pregnant (from the beta) but I have to wait 3-4 days for FP because of the progesterone. I know it's weird to say but I just want FP to show.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

The beta was negative

The beta was negative. That means that my last progesterone was last night and I hopefully will be getting FP by Saturday. I'm glad to be done with the progesterone, it's making me nauseated, tired, and bloated. They are calling in my rx's and I'll probably have an ultrasound Monday. This was not unexpected but it's still makes me sad. I had a little sliver of hope that I was feeling crappy because I was pregnant and that the HPTs were wrong.

Now I really am just waiting for cycle 8, and hoping for a January baby or at least a 2009 baby. I'm looking forward to FP getting here so we can start fresh. Hopefully, 100 mg of Clomid will give me an earlier o and maybe that will make it more likely that I can get pregnant. I feel like this is our last chance since it's the last medicated cycle. I'll need to get my 7DPO b/w done I think during a non-medicated cycle, so that I can see if I need the supplements to have any chance of pregnancy.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Update: Doing a beta today

I actually will be doing a beta today (from when I called my dr). I hopefully should have results by tomorrow morning. I'll be taking at least one more progesterone (which the dr's office is calling in now). I don't assume that I'll get any different results, but it's good that they are double checking.

BFN at 14DPO...it's over

I got another BFN at 14 DPO. I took my last progesterone last night and I'll be calling my dr soon to let her know. D know that I got a negative test yesterday, so he already knows that cycle 7 is likely a bust. At this point in time, I'll be lucky/surprised if I'm pregnant by SIL's wedding in Aug (at which point we will have been trying for a year but I've agree to wait until a year from now before additional testing). No 2008 baby for me. Hopefully FP will be here by Friday, so we can start the 100 mg clomid cycle (and maybe even get an earlier o). I'll only be starting cycle 8 but this is month 9 of TTC (cycles of 32-45 days will do that).

Monday, April 7, 2008

BFN at 13DPO

Since I got a BFN this morning at 13DPO, I'm most likely just going to be taking my last progesterone tonight and waiting for FP. I'll test tomorrow, but I doubt that the result will be different. I should hopefully get FP on Friday, and I'll call my dr to get my prescriptions called in. I should hopefully start round 3 of clomid (this time at 100 mg) and estrogen and progesterone on Sunday. This will be my last round of clomid. After this cycle (#8), we'll be going unmedicated until next year when D has agree to start testing.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Waiting to test

I'm 11 DPO and I'm waiting to test until at least tomorrow. I'm trying to hold until Monday (13 DPO). Since I'm on progesterone, I can't just wait for FP to show up. My normal LP when not on Clomid and progesterone is 11 days (which is part of reason that I'm on progesterone), so testing at 12 DPO is not completely crazy (right?). I'm trying not to get my hopes up, since there is no reason to believe that an follie that was 15 mm on CD13 on clomid and the egg wasn't release until CD28 (15 days later) would be any good. This is the 7th cycle and I haven't had any luck yet, so why would it work now? Also, I figure that since it's just a couple of days after D's birthday, I'm unlikely to be pregnant, since that would be a nice late birthday present. I've had a gift ready to tell him for the past 9 months or so.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

D's Birthday

It's D's 26th birthday today. I'm only 9 DPO, so I definitely can't test yet. With all the stuff we are doing on the house, I made his present (a list of 26 things I love about him) and card. I'm making his favorite dinner (chicken and dumpling) and getting a cookie cake from Great American Cookie Company. I don't know if I should have any hope or not for this cycle. Maybe I do need the 100mg of Clomid to get a good o and a good chance of getting pregnant. I've suddenly gotten sad, and I don't know why.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Trying not to get my hopes up

I'm 7DPO and I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I've had weird ovary soreness/fullness feeling and have been gassy for the last two days. It probably nothing, but my body likes to screw with me. This would be our last chance for a 2008 baby. I'll be testing next Monday and Tuesday and taking my last progesterone Tuesday if I don't have a positive test. D's birthday is Thursday, and I'm not completely sure what I'm going to get for him other than making dinner and getting the cookie cake. I probably decide soon.